i think today was a really weird day all things considered. i talked to some of my friends, played some subnautica 2, (great game by the way, especially if youre into the first game. i really am enjoying how expansive and intuitive it is.) ate some cereal, and slept a bunch. as you can probably tell from the timing of these updates, my sleep schedule is/hasn't been the best lately. its a bit of an exhausting endeavor, making this website. however, i intend to see it through. the reason i say its a weird day is because its the first day in a while that i haven't felt like the things i've been engaging with are completely aimless. i feel like lately, ever since i went through the breakup stuff has felt a little more *loose* feeling in a general sense of the word. its been a bit exhausting to move around, engage with things i'm interested in, etc, since most things remind me of her in a way. its hard not to acknowledge that we were together for four years, so this is a reasonable response. i don't like.. want her back or anything, she's just my best friend. but lately, she feels like she's on a different planet... anyway. today was the first day i didn't really feel that way. so i suppose thats not such a bad thing.
:)