this is my first blog style post on this site i intend to make. i think it would be interesting to keep logs of things i do, see, make, hear, etc, on this site, because i struggle with my memory. today i had a job interview at a dog boarding facility. it's not terribly far from me, just about a 25 minute drive, which, in the grand scheme of things is decent. the only issue is that gas prices in the united states are going up right now, and the ones closest to me are nearing 5.80 usd at most places. but i thought the drive was really pretty, and that makes it worth it i think. i think the importance of being out in nature and bullshitting is something i have taken for granted for the last four years and i dont think i want to do that anymore. i want to go outside and lie in the grass and the dirt and feel my real human fingers run through the dirt that this earth created just for me, just to sit up and go chuck rocks into the creek. no unnatural shit, no littering, just taking myself for a stroll to see the importance of mother earth doing her damn thing. being at peace with the world and shit. getting all existensial in here i guess.
when i was driving to the interview today, i was passing lots of farms since this dog boarding facility is in a more residential area. got to see lots of cows, horses and other such creatures on the way there. i even saw a skunk walking around on the side of the road! a skunk! i never see them out and about, unless they're unfortunately roadkill. i think the fact that we as humans built roads and overpasses and freeways and made technology that is responsible for roadkill is evil. i doubt this is like an unpopular opinion, but the fact that roads, cars, gasoline and electricity were all invented/made readily available by humans, which are also coincidentally the things needed to create roadkill... is really fucked up and abnormal. i dont like it
i've been in and out of jobs since i was discharged from my boarding school upon graduation, and i think it's realistic to say that typical retail/customer service jobs are not exactly for me. currently im trying to save up 100 usd, albeit the process will start once i actually LAND a decent job. ill be using that hundred dollars to buy a stenography keyboard. for anyone who isn't familiar with the word, stenography is essentially a style of typing that is in a similar style to that of playing chords on a piano. instead of having all the keys that a keyboard has that enables somebody to type on it, a stenography keyboard (steno for short) has keys that represent a letter that is more akin to a phonetic sound. string phonetic sounds together into chords, which make words! its like a different language, which i find to be so interesting. i think the other reason that this idea is so appealing is the fact that the job tied to it, being a court reporter, pays REALLY well, especially regarding the fact that you don't need a DEGREE to be a court reporter. you just need to get certified to be one, and then you just go work with a firm. so i think thats what i want to do!
i guess the last thing i wanted to talk about was the fact that theres a boy
there hasnt been a boy in a while
but now there is, and its scary
not him, he's not scary
hes like a little dog, like a cocker spaniel
always at my beck and call
so i figured i'd add like a section to talk about my learning progress and things i've updated on the site. so today i learned how to use div's, and added a border to the blog posts. i intend to learn a little bit more about making an actual site layout. something interesting and new.... and definitely original..... except it will be inspired. O_O
i think today was a really weird day all things considered. i talked to some of my friends, played some subnautica 2, (great game by the way, especially if youre into the first game. i really am enjoying how expansive and intuitive it is.) ate some cereal, and slept a bunch. as you can probably tell from the timing of these updates, my sleep schedule is/hasn't been the best lately. its a bit of an exhausting endeavor, making this website. however, i intend to see it through. the reason i say its a weird day is because its the first day in a while that i haven't felt like the things i've been engaging with are completely aimless. i feel like lately, ever since i went through the breakup stuff has felt a little more loose feeling in a general sense of the word. its been a bit exhausting to move around, engage with things i'm interested in, etc, since most things remind me of her in a way. its hard not to acknowledge that we were together for four years, so this is a reasonable response. i don't like.. want her back or anything, she's just my best friend. but lately, she feels like she's on a different planet... anyway. today was the first day i didn't really feel that way. so i suppose thats not such a bad thing.
:)
(added a new blinkie)
